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0:01 i want to take this opportunity to welcome everyone to the shabbat shuv russia shabbat shiva russia usually offers us the opportunity to come together as united kihilo as a community in the days between rosh hashanah and kipper and that sacred 0:15 shabbos during these days of repentance these days of chuva of course this year is a little bit different and we've chosen to put the drasha utilizing this online format but the power of torah is that it creates a bond between 0:28 us the power of torah is that it links arnold shamans together so even though we may each learn and experience to listen to this drasha in our own homes or in the car in different places that we learn together should 0:41 serve as a bond to bring us all together i want to begin by thanking the sponsors of today's joshua to thank our talmud sponsors for the month of tishrei stephen terry zinn for dedicating all the sheer urban dress shows this 0:55 month in memory of their parents sv hershbenios like to thank 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learning bani pasikov in memory of her beloved mother uh bari pasekov bayla basyosef and devorah abrams for the appreciation for all of the torah and accessibility to learning we thank all of our sponsors for 2:23 their dedication for their generosity and for their commitment to our kihila there is a fascinating dynamic that is brought down a fascinating dynamic excuse me that is brought down in the gemara miss sachas yuma the gemara quotes the opinion of 2:42 rebbie and rebby says something absolutely amazing that at first glance seems to fly in the face of everything we know regarding conventional chival rebbe writes this is in daf pe hey ahmed based page 85 b rebbe writes kaladero shepard yamaki 3:04 rebbe writes any aveira you commit any avery you commit whether you went ahead and you did chuva or you didn't do chuva yomaki purim yom kippur has the ability to atone for those aveiros a dramatic concept which becomes known as 3:21 itsumo the essence of the day yom kippur day itself provides atonement whether you do anything or not the day itself has a cleansing cathartic impact upon the individual so just my friends to understand what rubbish means whatever he says is 3:39 there for you gipper comes i decide i'm not getting out of bed you know what i'm going to call it in i'm just i'm going to sleep this one i'm going to take it easy i'm exhausted i'm tired it's been 3:47 a long week longer seriously mitchelva i'm tired of him keeper i'm going to stay in bed granted i'm going to fast i'm going to abstain from physical pleasures but i am staying in bed rebbe says even if you did not 3:59 open up the mahzar on yom kippur even if you did not clap on hashem even if you didn't do anything on yom kippur it's the day itself atones for you being lower you did do chu but you didn't do chiva 4:18 you are sorry you're not sorry you thought about being sorry you decided you're not sorry you decided you are sorry you said it you didn't say it you thought it you didn't think it doesn't make any difference yomaki foreign keeper 4:30 of tones and the question is obvious what does this mean first of all it flies in the face of everything we know about chuva chuva the past the process of repentance is all about dynamic activity is all about making change 4:47 is all about figuring out a way to live differently to be different and here debbie says total passivity works on yom kippur as well total inaction works on your own keeper as well even if you do absolutely nothing yum kipper 5:03 itself atones how we to understand rebbe's position how we to understand the power of yom kippur and why should this work so i want to take a little bit of a journey the mission of sakazuma going back a little bit 5:17 on daf lamite page 35b discusses the sacrificial process of him kimber we know yom kippur was unique because although there were sacrificial processes which occurred all of the time in the basal mikdash yom kippur was unique in that yom kippur 5:32 everything had to be done by the kohingol by the high priest everything done by the high priest so the mishnah describes the frenetic activity the high priest running here and running their multiple changes of clothing for different forms of different 5:44 sacrificial services inside outside immersions in the mikvah so the bishop says as follows the mission is speaking about the power the power the the bull the bull offering of the koein and the mishnah discusses here's some of this the coin 6:01 would place his hands on the head of the bowl and he would confess he would confess his sins and the sins of his family and then ultimately the sins of klaus or the jewish people how would he confess hashem please 6:14 hashem so without getting into all technicalities but avon pasha and hate are all different types of sins hate is an unintentional sin an avon is an intentional sin to satisfy a desire and pasha is an intentional sin with the intention 6:34 to rebel against the authority of god so the coin says hashem performed all of these different alberos please forgive all of the aderos that i have committed both myself in my household and the gemara is bothered by something interesting the 6:56 gemara is bothered by two words hashem when we translate it we know you as please hashem please hashem so what's intriguing is about the use of this phrase in the first sentence of the coin so if you translate it it 7:13 says please hashem i have sinned unintentional sins intentional sins rebellious sins and the question is obvious what does anash please hashem i've sinned now i understand the next phrase please hashem forgive me please hashem atone for me please hashem cleanse 7:33 me then i understand the please hashem but why is there an hashem please hashem i have sinned a visi what's the meaning of that phrase so the gemara explains me in shabbat on why do you use this formulation of ana please 7:48 hashem so interesting of the gemara says it's modeled after moshe rabbenu that's when moshe davens for the jewish people in the aftermath of the sin of the golden calf what does he say this is in schmos in exodus para klama 8:01 base chapter 32 verse 1 verse 31 fayosh of moshe ana khatam haze this nation has performed a terrible sin of grievous sin they have made for themselves a golden calf so moshe said ana please please hashem the people have sinned 8:25 a great sin so because moshe said ana for the confession of the jewish people we borrow that same ana hashem and the cohen uses it for his video and the truth is we use this for our personal viewers our personal 8:38 confession because according to the rambam it's not just enough to confess in generalities you have to specify what i have done wrong so we use unasham where does on hashem come from the shaman our v doing our confession comes from 8:57 the anna of moshe but it's the same question now i don't understand the verse by moshe what do you mean please please hashem the people have committed a terrible aveira please what please what what what is it that i'm asking i 9:15 understand you want to say please forgive them please forgive them please please go ahead and erase the sin please annul the punishment what do you mean please please hashem i have sinned what's the meaning of ana so it's beautiful that the 9:32 gemara has shown me a scriptural source for the wording for the cohen's confession so i understand the klingon didn't make up on a hashem he took it from australia but the question is the same why is that word please inserted 9:47 into the vedu of the cohen into the confession of yom kippur and rabbis advances something incredibly amazing the rav writes and he writes about this extensively that shiva chiva the concept of repentance is fundamentally illogical it doesn't make any sense 10:06 for simple reasons every action has a reaction every action has a consequence it's very nice that a person says that they're sorry absolutely of course wonderful that you said that you're sorry but at the end of the day i still 10:20 did something wrong so how is it that shiva remember the power of truth is such that sincere chiva has the ability to go ahead and erase punishment really sincere chiva has the ability to erase sin profoundly sincere chiva has the 10:38 ability to convert past transgressions ultimately into mitzvos into positive deeds positive acts how does that make sense and in fact everybody salvation writes he says hiddhabra bilti it makes absolutely no sense totally illogical built us even the angels the angels 11:02 don't understand shiva and as a result when the angels see a human being doing chuva what do they do him so grim assassin they close the gates of heavens because they feel what is this thing chuva you did the crime 11:15 you do the time right you made a mistake i got it you apologized very nice fantastic maybe that'll lessen the punishment lessen the severity of the transgression but that shiva should erase something that should change something from an advaira to 11:29 a mitzvah don't understand it so when human beings start doing children their natural reaction is close the gates steal off the gates god doesn't need to be bothered with this kind of stuff you should have been more thoughtful beforehand should 11:41 have been more careful before it's very nice to say i'm sorry very nice to say i'm sorry how many times does it happen where we have interpersonal conflict that someone apologizes and of course you have you have to be a 11:52 gracious individual and it is important to accept people's apologies even if you don't think it's so sincere but there's a part of me that says i'm happy you apologize why didn't you do it why did you do why did you 12:03 have to say that thing why did you have to engage in that action why did you have to hurt that i accept the apology i accept the apology i believe you that you're not going to do it again i'm looking 12:13 forward to restarting the relationship but why did you do it so the malachin the angel says when they hear shiva they want to close the gates come on come on enough of that you committed the act i should have thought 12:25 beforehand you should have been more vigilant you should have been more careful now you want to say you're sorry very nice noted noted right silver apologized okay good but there's no room for you up here the malachim say do your 12:38 filos again ring hollow because if you were really that concerned you would have been more careful from the beginning so what does that do so says as the closing the gates does something amazing and he quotes away the second son 12:56 the umar talks about the idea about king menasha king menasha was one of the longest serving monarchs he reigned for 55 years 55 years and for 22 of them he was a most heinous russia incredibly evil introducing immorality and idolatry 13:16 in every corner of the kingdom but then a life event occurred and he decided to make halal and for the last 33 years of his life he sing he he dedicated himself to akhole he even tried to uproot all of 13:30 the negativity that he had sown he was unsuccessful in that part he was unable to go ahead and kind of you know rewind he was unable to go ahead and take back all that he had done all the negativity that 13:42 he had sown but on a personal level he had rehabilitated his self so the gemara says that menasha wants to do chuva menasha wants to repent and the malachim said the angels and the heavenly courts say no way no how 13:56 22 years not only did you sin you know the ramen brings down that one of the worst things a person could do is not only their own sin but causing others to sin because if you cause others to sin even 14:07 if you do chew by yourself you can't undo that which other people did menashe caused others to sin and therefore the gemara says a secret tunnel a back door a back door menasha you want to come home menasha you want 14:32 to come back menasha you want to do chuva the front door is closed the malloch and the angels they're barricading it they're barricading it but come here i'll show you a secret entrance i'll show you a back way i'll show 14:43 you an underground tunnel so you too could become about shove and away says so beautifully he says this is the meaning of the word ana what does it mean when we say hashem hashem please hashem what am i saying please 15:00 to please what please what and obviously check right so beautiful i'll quote you he says he says if we listen attentively when we see that when we say the word ana we hear the cry the cry the heartbreaking cry do 15:27 not close the door in front of me ana means please rip don't close the door please i know that i've messed up i know that i've made mistakes i know i've done things wrong and i know that i'm not an 15:44 episodic offender i'm a habitual offender and i know that it's the same thing over and over and over and i know that i've said sorry a million different times but ana hashem please please don't close the door even though i 16:04 know i've done it all i've done it all and i've done it repeatedly but on hashem please hashem i know that my luck and want to close the door i know that the base in shambhala wants to close about anasha 16:17 and please i'm asking you i'm asking you don't close the door don't close the door on me ano al tin all as hasha please do not close the gates tamely no my mashup says thereof allow me to say something please 16:36 please just keep the door open don't slam it in my face just keep the door open so we could talk this through so we could talk this out that's the ana hashem anna please please just listen please just listen please 16:55 just keep the door open please just give me a few moments to talk to you please give me a few moments to explain yes i've done it all but please vivoshun please please just keep the door open but perhaps we 17:14 could take the rav's idea a little bit further that maybe ana doesn't just mean keep the door open but ana the please means please shalom don't give up on me don't give up on me don't throw in the towel on 17:32 me ano hashem i know i know i know i know what i've done i know what i've done i know it because at the end of the day although i make excuses and i justifications and i hide behind madapashkafas and 17:55 isms and everything else i know i know what i did i know what i did but i ask you don't give up on me hashem please keep the doors open please don't give up on me i may be a little 18:12 bit tarnished and i may be a little bit damaged and i may be a little bit difficult and i may be exceptionally rough around the edges but please don't give up on me don't give up hope don't throw in the 18:25 towel on a hashem please don't give up on me despite kratosi avicii pashati and this is what moshe rabino was saying if you think about this right boshi habena says this nation they committed something so terrible they built a golden 18:46 calf they built the golden calf and you know it always struck me that moshe knew why did he have to repeat that god knows what they did we all know what they did right the reader knows what they did we 18:57 see it in the homicide motion did it so moshe why do you have to say it again please hashem the nation sinned the great sin um but they built the golden gate why do you have to say it we know 19:07 it already not only that but what this motion we're going to say right after that the atta motion makes a little bit of a threat it's not even a veil threat it's an open threat the ato in t if you will forgive 19:18 their sin fantastic if you don't forgive their sin erase me from your torah waste me from your torah those are those are fighting words what are you what are you you're threatening god khalifa did something wrong sweaty threatening god it's 19:34 not a threat when moshe says says anna please ribanus i'm just asking i'm just asking keep the door open don't give up on them despite the fact that they did something terrible i am not at all negating the fact that this 19:53 was a heinous a heinous act i'm not at all discounting the fact that this was a terrible relationship trespass i am not in all minimizing the severity of the act they built a golden calf but anna please don't give up 20:07 on them you can't give up on them ribano shalollam because if you give up on them then it's only a matter of time until you give up on me moshe they know because i'll also make mistakes cause i made mistakes 20:21 most of it says i'll make mistakes i'll fall i'll fail i'll mess up and if you're gonna give up on cloudy so when they make mistakes then that means you're gonna end up giving up on me when i make mistakes 20:34 also and if you're going to give up on me then just give up on everyone at once just give up on cloud you saw they're fine but then just take me out also give up on me if you're going to 20:46 give up on them then give up on me what we ask in that one word of anna is don't stop believing in us don't give up on me don't give up on me no matter how damaged i may be no 21:04 matter how many mistakes i may have made no matter how much of a repeat offender i may be please ribano shalom do not give up on me keep the gates open let's talk let's dialogue let's figure this out but please 21:19 just please don't give up on me that was what mosh rabbini was asking for that's what the coingodu asks for and that's what we ask for and maybe this is the shot in rebbe's statement so remember again rebbe said rabbi 21:33 said it sumo right ultimately again it is the itunes the essence of the day that it tones right rebbe it sounds like what he's saying is even if you do nothing even if you do nothing yom kippur takes care of 21:47 all of your averages and that's bothers us i mean it sounds great but it doesn't seem to shim it doesn't really seem to gel to fit with the rest of our hashgover regarding children regarding the run it's all about change 21:57 it's all about activity it's all about actions not about passivity and somehow the day magically swoops in and goes ahead and takes care of everything but elomi what's yom kippur what is yom kippur the passage itself says about yom kippur 22:12 kiba alaikum yom kippur is the day of forgiveness yom kippur is the day of atonement young kippur is the day that akadeshibaraku says to us i'm not giving up on you i'm not giving up on you at times i may 22:37 be disappointed and other times they may even be upset and other times they may be disenchanted but at the end of the day i'm not giving up on you and what's the proof that the ribono shalolum does not give up 22:51 on me what's the proof yom kippur that every single year built into our calendar is a day of forgiveness a day when akon who is willing to listen and they wanna college baruch who keeps the gates open and by the 23:04 way not only does he keep the gates open he keeps the gates open even later right the hotel of ni'ila the boston is the gates are closing keep them open longer and he listens your entire essence of yom kippur the 23:17 message of yom kippur is that the spiral whispering into our ears and whispering into our souls i believe in you i believe in you and i'm not throwing in the towel on you no matter how much you've done this year 23:29 or how much you haven't done this year no matter how many missteps or mistakes you have made i am not giving up on you my beloved child that is the essence of um keeper and that's rebbe's statement what rebbe tells 23:41 us is doesn't mean that yom kippur has some type of magical quality that wipes out every iverif i do nothing but it is the essence of the day that gives me the confidence to talk to my father to make a 24:00 plan for change because ultimately yom kippur tells me that he believes in me yom kippur tells me that that abolish odom has not thrown in the towel on me and when i am armed with the knowledge that my father believes 24:18 in me there's no telling what i could accomplish that's itsumo yo mekhaper it is the essence of the fact that there is a yom kippur a day in which hashem tells us i am ready and willing to forgive you i 24:32 am ready and willing to atone for you i am ready and willing to start again wow the emotional scene mean you believe in me you mean you believe in me even though i've messed up you mean you believe in me 24:43 even though i haven't made of my life what i wanted to you mean you believe in me even though i haven't actualized my potential yet you mean you believe in me despite the fact that i still haven't honored the promises 24:53 from last year this is one simple word yes yes i believe in you and when i know that my father believes in me that gives me the confidence to change that gives me the confidence that the chiva that gives me 25:11 the confidence to turn things around it's sumo yo merhapa the essence of the day of tones is not some type of magical idea that yom kippur comes in and just wipes everything clean with no action on my part but the 25:27 essence of the day the fact that hashem says i'm willing to forgive you i'm willing to start again i'm willing to give you another year tells me that he believes in me and if he believes in me then i have 25:41 the confidence then i have the strength to achieve kappa to achieve atonement to start again and to leave lead a more meaningful life you know sometimes i'm just speaking openly and honestly sometimes it's hard to open up the master on 25:57 yom kippur so let's try to talk to them because it's like deja vu but not the good kind of deja vu because i find myself saying i'm sorry for the same things i don't understand how could it be that i'm not getting 26:13 any life traction how could it be that i'm still struggling with the same things how could it be that the same pages that were soaked with tears from last year because they represented something that i really felt was broken in 26:29 my life they still haven't dried this here crying over the simavirus i'm saying i'm sorry for the same things i'm apologizing for the same dysfunction and nothing's changing and so sometimes when i have this and i think we all experience 26:47 this in different ways i say you know what maybe it's just not worth it because if i can't get my act together if i can't get my life together if i can't get myself together if i can't believe in me 27:05 then how does akkadish particle believe in me this becomes yom kippur and dear friends if you close your eyes and you open your ears and you open your heart you hear that divine voice they called the mama dhaka the soft 27:20 whisper that just says my child i believe in you what words does a child want to hear more from a parent than those three simple words four words i believe in you that's what each of us wants from our parents 27:41 and we all know that is the hallmark of good parenting so that your children know that you believe in them the ribosome gives us a day where the entire message he tries to convey to us is i believe in you 27:53 come on you could do it and even if you're in the same spot this year as you were last year which was the same thing as the year before that is the 15th as the 20th the 30 years before that 28:04 this year could be different i believe in you i believe in your ability to make something of yourself i believe in your ability to transcend your current situations i believe in your ability to escape the shackles of mediocrity i believe 28:18 in your ability to actualize your potential that's what i sparrow who whispers to us and you keep her the proof to that is yom kippur itself why else would the ribano shall olam give us a day where forgiveness is possible 28:34 if he didn't believe in us forgiveness is the greatest gift it's a gift in our human relationships the ability to start again the ability to turn over a new page turn over a new leaf the ability to rehabilitate death which 28:48 is broken only gives us the possibility for forgiveness because he believes in us so we say oh no my father i have one simple request don't stop believing in me don't give up on me because the moment that you give 29:06 up on me is the moment that i give up on myself back my beloved child i will never give up on you the proof to that is yom kippur it comes every year whether you had a good year you didn't 29:22 have such a great year the possibility for forgiveness is there which means that the divine belief in each and every one of us is ever present and the truth is this is not just the theme for yom kippur this is 29:37 the theme for the yom no ram you know one of the things i've always found striking is the kriya satoru the torah reading for the first day of rosh hashanah saturday so remember the first day of rashford hashem remembered sarah 29:48 for pregnancy so we know the reason we read that on our show because the gemara says sorry excuse me sorry i mean it was barren for many years and on rosh hashanah she became pregnant she was remembered for pregnancy so because 30:02 i was meant for pregnancy therefore you read the section of hashem remember it's not for pregnancy on the first day rosh hashanah but what's interesting is the kriya doesn't just stop there it doesn't just talk about the you know the pregnancy 30:13 of sarah and the birth of yitzchak but it goes on into great detail regarding the story of ishmael right and the torah speaks about the idea that ishmael that ishmael grows up and sarah is very unhappy with the way he's 30:27 living and the actions he's engaging in and so sarah says to avram you have to send hagar in of course at first is very resistance but he listens to his wife because who tells him to and they send away hagar 30:39 and you know the story they're in the desert ishmael is dying of thirst hagar puts him underneath one of the thorn bushes for him to die under the shade and the miracle occurs the mother shows hugger there's a well is 30:50 brought back to life he's rehabilitated and then they go on with their lives the torah says that after this entire episode they settle in the desert yeshmal grows up he's in the midbar they go ahead and they live in midbar 31:03 paran okay that's the end of the story and it's very striking why is that here and what why why is that story here or is why why does ishmael get so much airtime why does ishmael get so much attention on 31:17 rosh hashanah a dear friends i want to share with you an incredible yakut shimoni the yakut writes as follows i'm going to quote some of it inside some of it outside because it's a truly dramatic is three years go by 31:48 and our mavino wants to see his ishmael you see ishmael was son remember even though abram sent ishmael the way he didn't want to sing yeshua it's only because god intervened and sarah demanded it that he acquiesced but remember if 32:02 you go back a little bit when hashem announces when hashem tells abram that he and sarah are going to have a son do you remember avraham's response remember abram's response his response was just like ishmael live what does that mean 32:18 hashem just told you you're going to have a son with sarah and your reaction is just like yeshua live and asham for her says something absolutely astounding he says avram said to god god thank you but i don't need another 32:30 son i have a son his name is ishmael can you just help me with him why can't he be my spiritual heir why can't he be the perpetrator of the abrahamic legacy why do you have to make a whole miracle 32:44 that a 90 year old woman 100 year old man have have a son i have a son i haven't loved yeshua because yeshua was just flesh and blood yeshua was his son so he sends him away three years later avraham 32:57 wants to go visit ishmael but the alcott's right surrounding was very much against it she thought it's not good and understandably so ishmael is not your future yitzhak is your future you need to focus your attentions here so they finally 33:11 reach an agreement says fine you could go but you are not allowed to get off the camel so you can go you could visit yourself a bit say hello give him a shalom but you can't stay you have to stay 33:23 you have to stay on your camel okay so what happens goes he travels to ishmael so he shows up at ishmael's home it's the middle of the day knocks on the door says now the woman is ishmael's wife who answers 33:40 the door avram's daughter-in-law presumably she doesn't know who he is and he says he's ishmael home and she says no he's not home he went with his mother to go gather fruit from the desert avram says okay i'm saying i 33:54 came from a long journey do you have any bread do you have any water that you can give me and she said no i'm sorry i'm really sorry i'm nothing to give you very inhospitable woman says okay can you do 34:07 me a favor can you go ahead and just leave a message for ishmael abram stopped by and tell him that he should really go ahead and change the threshold of his home for it is very not befitting of him was 34:23 dispatching a message to his son a coded message the threshold of the home is a wife a woman is the threshold of the home she is the icker the akira sabai is the cornerstone of the home i don't say ishmael 34:33 you came from a home of khasi you came from a home of kindness this woman doesn't embody our values ishmael comes back he hears that a man avraham came to visit him he goes ahead and he hears the message and 34:47 the major relates the major relates that he told his mother and his mother took for him a second wife this second woman who was from hagar's family her name was fatima so ishmael marries again another three years later avraham decided 35:03 once again i have to see my son i haven't seen ishmael now it's more it's more than six years now i'll have to go see my son once again sorry menu is resistant they reach an agreement fine you could go 35:15 but you can't get off the camel avenue travels to you to ishmael excuse me he knocks on the door he says excuse me as you small home and once again again wife opens up not the same wife this was fatima's 35:27 second wife is usually small here and ultimately she says no he's not here i'm sorry he's out gathering produce from the desert miata avenue so what happens but she says to him you must be tired from your journey so she 35:43 brings out bread she brings out water and averaging has something to eat and drink listen to the magicians he says by the entrance of ishmael's tent and he darvened for his son he died for his son the son that he 36:03 had to kick out of his home the son that had to exile another son that he hadn't seen for six years and he doesn't know the next time he's gonna make it back not make it back i don't know it's 36:12 already an older man so i don't know if it means that he dismounted the camel in defiance of sorrow or he just stood still on the camel but he defined for his son vanessa male baso shall you say and miraculously 36:27 ishmael's home became filled with money with blessing with material wealth kesheba ishmael and then adam leaves ishmael comes home and he sees the home is filled with light the home is filled with money the home is sold with material possessions 36:48 ishmael says to his wife what happened she says i don't know this man this man came he asked for you i think his name was avram you weren't here i gave him some bread i gave him some water and he'd 37:00 haven't so i've told him everything that happened is how much his father loved him just like every father loves his children in that moment yeshua knew how much his father loved him do you want to know why we read this 37:31 section on rashford i want to read the story of yeshua and rosh hashanah because everyone thinks the story of ishmael ends when ishmael is exiled barak hashem is healed underneath the thorn bushes he gets mad and he goes on that's the 37:42 end of the story but it's not the end of the story it's not the end of the story because the father never gives up on the sun because the same father that said to aka just let yeshma live just let 37:58 the ishmael live just like ishmael be the one let him be the chosen one avraham didn't give up on his iran even who said no that's not the way it's going to work your future is not just about you your 38:07 future comes from you and sarah so it's got to be yitzhak so i've of course accepted that that was that was but he never gave up on his child he never gave up on his yeshua because a father never gives 38:21 up on his son that's the kriya that's the total reading for rosh hashanah a father never gives up on his child and avraham never gives up on ishmael and the ribono shall olam never gives up on us you see so 38:41 many times we go through life and we think that we're damaged goods and if we don't articulate it deep down we feel it and often even if we don't articulate or even if we don't actually or like consciously feel it 38:54 we lower the expectations for ourselves we become content with coasting we become content we're just being the same because deep down do you know why people really settle for mediocrity deep down do you know why at the end they suffer 39:08 with mediocrity because they don't really believe in themselves a lot of times people are just happy to live on cruise control because deep down i really don't believe that i'm capable of any more i don't believe that greatness is actually 39:25 in my stars becomes yom kippur and the ribosome tells us i believe in you we learn about it in avraham that never gives up on it and the ishmael who feels the love of his father albeit from a distance and 39:45 how what an incredible metaphor that story is because so many times father and son just they just miss each other they just miss each other comes twice in six years and both times both times his son is not there and 39:57 how many times does that sparkle reach out to us i'm not home i'm in the desert collecting fruit i'm just not available right now and sometimes works absolutely sometimes i feel like i reach out to hashem and i feel he's 40:10 not there sometimes the father and sons miss each other a little bit sometimes they don't have the same frequency sometimes they're not on the same schedule but just because they miss each other never in believe never means that they give 40:22 up on each other i don't know if avraham ever saw you smile again i don't know i don't know it could be that when he came with that when he was exiled from the home maybe that was it he tried 40:34 twice maybe they never saw each other again but one thing is clear which is ishmael heard his father's voice in his heart and in his ears ringing and saying i love you and i believe in you and that's the voice 40:50 of the rebel shall allah that we have to hear as well he loves us so much he believes in us so much and that is why we have a young keeper you only get a day of forgiveness because your god 41:06 believes in you you only get an opportunity to start again because your father believes in you the honor hashem please akadeshparahu just don't throw in the towel just don't give up on me that fila is answered every single yom kippur 41:25 so as we go into this yom kippur shabashuvanyam kippur we have to try especially during yum kippur itself to take an opportunity just to close everything else out you know this is uh this is a complicated yom kippur and sometimes 41:41 people are dabbing inside or outside or smolder minion masks social distancing like there's so much stuff and for some of us you know some of our children can go to show some of them can't go to show some of us 41:54 can go to somebody's can't go to show there's so much so much going on i will tell you just on a personal level you know hashem we had three different i feel like i spent most of the time running around 42:05 and i didn't have the davening that i really wanted to have or could have had i could have had it if i tried harder but but but i didn't it's there's a lot of bahala there's a lot of confusion a 42:14 lot of back and forth and a lot of movement in these days but you have to take the opportunity even just for a few moments close your eyes still everything around you just listen listen you will hear the called the 42:32 mumma dhaka that says i believe in you my child i love you you said anna please don't throw in the towel and i'm telling you i will never throw in the towel it doesn't matter how badly you mess up or 42:45 how badly you feel i will never stop believing in you that's yum keeper and if believes in us how much we have to begin believing in ourselves let's really believe in ourselves you know we often like to say that we 43:04 could be anything we want but we don't really believe it because i say to myself well i can't really be anything i want i can't be an astronaut i can't be a basketball player i can't be that that might be 43:16 true that might be true but on the rook on the spiritual level you could be whatever you want there your height doesn't matter there you know your physical agility doesn't matter even your intellectual capacity doesn't matter in the world of 43:32 rookies in the world of spirituality you can make of yourself whatever you want the sky is the limit and the coldest part who believes that you can become something great krishna who believes that i can become someone great he believes 43:49 in us let's use this yom kippur to begin to believe in ourselves i hope that emirates hashem we will each be privileged to hear the whisper the whisper that says i love you i believe in you when we get that 44:07 whisper take it savor it say thank you because the mosham you've now given me the clock to believe in myself and if we make this a year of believing in ourselves and accomplishing great things there maybe will be zohati here 44:23 another whisper another called the mumma dhaka the whisper of mashiach the whisper of gula the whisper of it's time to come home and be together with your people with your land with your mashiach with your base amiktas with your god 44:47 maybe foreign
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